At twenty-five, his steps outside felt like he was learning how to walk again. He had traded his orange jumpsuit for a plain white T-shirt and jeans his grandmother, Mama Nell, left for him. The sun, brighter than he remembered, hit his face like a second baptism.
He looked up at the sky. âThank You,â he whispered.
In prison, Christian met Chaplain Dorsey, a silver-haired man with laugh lines around his eyes and the calm of someone who knew storms firsthand.
âI see something in you, son,â Dorsey had said. âYouâve still got purpose. God hasnât thrown away the clay.â
Christian read Scripture out of boredom, then curiosity, then conviction. The parable of the Prodigal Son hit him hardestâthe idea that someone could squander everything, yet still be welcomed home.
Now free, Christian had a new mission: make amends, one day at a time.
Mama Nell lived on the corner of Walker and 3rd. She was waiting on the porch when he arrived, arms crossed, her full chest rising with a breath. âYou got my house keys?â she asked flatly.
Christian smiled sheepishly. âYes, maâam.â
âThen go wash your hands before touching anything.â
Mama Nell didnât do hugs, but her love ran deep. She had prayed for him dailyâsometimes with tears, sometimes with grit. She gave him the back room, a plate of hot cornbread, fried chicken, candied yams, collard greens, and one rule: âYou better walk with the Lord in this house.â
One week later, Christian found work at Rebuild, a community center run by ex-cons and former addicts who had turned their lives around. They offered after-school programs, job training, and a boxing gym for at-risk youth. Jay Sparks, the founder, had been to prison himself and didnât sugarcoat anything.
âYou mess up, we hold you accountable,â he told Christian. âBut if you fall and get back up? Weâre here for you.â
Christian cleaned floors, folded chairs, and kept his head down. In time, respect followed.
One afternoon, while running errands for Rebuild, he saw one of his old crew members across the gas station parking lot.
âYo, C! I got work for you if you want it. Easy money, just like old times.â
Christianâs pulse quickened. He remembered the rush, the power, the lie of control. But then he thought of Mama Nell. Of Chaplain Dorseyâs quiet words: âGrace isnât just about being forgivenâitâs about choosing different when no oneâs watching.â
He shook his head. âNah. Iâm building something real now.â
A week later, life shifted again.
He was standing in line at the grocery store, picking up items for Mama Nell, when he heard a soft familiar voice behind him. âChristian?â
He turnedâand froze.
âPorsha?â
She looked good. Grown. Confident. Her hair pulled into a sleek bun, a gold necklace catching the light. But it was the little boy standing beside herâwide-eyed, dark-skinned, and with Christianâs exact dimplesâthat knocked the air out of his lungs.
âWhoâs lil man?â he asked, even though his heart already knew.
Porshaâs jaw tightened. âThis is Jalen.â
Christian dropped his eyes to the child. âHi, Jalen.â He smiled gently. âIâmââ
âJust someone I used to know,â Porsha cut in. âCome on, baby.â
And just like that, she was gone.
Later that evening, he sat on Mama Nellâs porch, staring into the streetlights.
âI know Jalen is my child,â he muttered. âHe looks just like me. Why didnât you tell me?â
âWhat could you do about it?â Mama Nell said while sipping tea. âYou were locked up. That girl was scared. Alone. She moved on with her life.â
âBut heâs my son.â
âYes,â Mama Nell said quietly. âYou made him, but it donât make you a father. What you gonna do about it?â
Christian made several attempts to contact Porsha through calls, texts, and even a letter, but she never replied. Left with no other option, he applied for visitation rights. "I'm not looking for a fight," he explained to the court clerk. "I just want to know my son."
The process was slow. Expensive. Humiliating. He had a piece of a job, no degree, no credibility. Just a criminal record and a deep ache in his chest every time he passed the park and saw dads pushing swings.
The first court date was brutal. Porsha stood on the opposite side of the room with her new fiancĂŠâa man with a buttoned-up shirt and clean record.
âI donât want my son around him,â she said flatly. âHeâs unstable. Dangerous.â
Christian sat still. He didnât argue. Just listened.
Afterward, the judge ordered a review: employment status, living situation, and parenting classes.
âUntil you can show youâre stable, there will be no visitation,â the judge said. âChild support is still expected.â
Christian nodded, jaw tight. âYes, Your Honor.â
Despite the challenges, Christian stayed committed. He kept working at Rebuild, investing in the young people who reminded him of himself. While his past lingered, his present pulled him forward.
One night after class, he passed by the park. It was nearly empty, except for a woman on a bench watching a child on a slide.
It was Porsha.
He nearly turned away, but something in him said, âNow.â
He approached slowly. âHey.â
Porsha's eyes widened as she looked up at him, her expression no longer guarded.
âIâm not here to argue,â he said. âJust wanted you to know Iâm trying. I have a job. Iâm paying child support. Iâm taking parenting classes. Iâm not the same man.â
She looked at him for a long moment, then over at Jalen.
âHe asked who you were,â she said quietly.
Christian smiled. âWhat did you say?â
They both chuckled softly.
Trying not to betray the ache in his chest, Christian asked softly, âAre you still with that guy?â
She nodded.
âDoes he treat you right?â
âYes. Heâs good to Jalen, too.â
Christian nodded. âThatâs all I could hope for. Just⌠donât shut me out. Please.â
She didnât answer. But she didnât walk away either.
At the next hearing, Christian presented his binder. The judge flipped through every document. Porsha remained quiet.
âIâm granting supervised visitation,â the judge said. âOne hour a week for now. Re-evaluation in six months.â
Christianâs hands shook as he said, âThank you.â
When Jalen finally walked in with Porsha, Christianâs heart skipped a beat. The boy looked at him curiously. Christian knelt to meet him eye-to-eye.
âHey there, Jalen. Iâm your dad,â he said softly.
Jalen studied him a moment, then tentatively reached out. Christian felt a lump rise in his throat as he took the boyâs small hand.
They colored for the whole hour. Jalen talked about school and his dog and how he liked French fries but hated peas. Christian listened like it was gospel.
At the end, Jalen hugged him without being asked.
Six months later, the court granted unsupervised visits. Porsha started texting updates. Sometimes even sent pictures. Christian never overstepped. He always said thank you.
One evening, he and Jalen sat on the porch of Mama Nellâs house, eating popsicles.
âIâm glad youâre my dad,â Jalen said.
Christian nodded slowly. âMe too.â
âWhere were you before?â
Christian took a breath. âI made some mistakes. Grown-up mistakes.â
Jalen leaned against him. âIâm glad youâre here now.â
Christian swallowed hard. âMe too, lil man. Me too.â
Mama Nell watched them through the screen door, a tissue in her hand and tears finally rolling.
âHeâs gonna be alright,â she whispered to the Lord.
And this time, she didnât cry from worryâshe cried from hope.